Satellite no more
I've been here over a week and already the time is starting to fly by. Maybe it's the language classes, or how were getting into a routine (sort of), but it just seems that there aren't enough hours in the day for me to do all that I want to do. I may already be hopelessly behind with respect to journalling all of this.
Or maybe it's because I do actually do a lot in the day, I just can't remember it once it's over. But more likely, it's because I'm being a lot more social than I used to.
No, really. I have become a much more social person than I ever was, even during my dorm days. See, back then there were enough people, an adequate number of nameless faces, such that I could blend into the background and not be noticed if I didn't want to. Not to mention that the setting would soon become a routine and familiar one, where everyone would eventually find their own little group to hide within; to heck with anyone still outside.
Let me explain a little more. I find myself sitting around in people's rooms, just talking, listening to music and whatnot, looking at people's pictures, or whatever. When I eat, I'm in one of the kitchens, and I'm usually not alone. When people get together to go out, they frequently ask, "Want to come along?" (I often do.) Discussions and conversations happen anywhere, for no reason. Inside jokes developing. People saying hi in the hallway. Why is this happening? Why am I suddenly a part of a circle instead of a satellite, one who people see but don't hear, whose absence is never noticed? And why wasn't my Florida interim like this?
Interim, although it was a similarly-sized group of people, was in a much different situation. We had no permanent home save for the vans, and although we were in unfamiliar settings, we didn't really have any reason to stick together. People spoke our language. Everything was planned out for us in advance. There was an equal male/female balance. Being in Hungary is different. We have an actual home base. Until the rest of our classes start, most of our time is open. Few people outside our group speak our language. We depend on each other with sharing school info, how to use transit, where to find this or that, how to get an internet connection set up, and on and on. There being only five guys, it's unlikely that the group will splinter. I've done a lousy job of explaining why things are the way they are, but I think I can summarize like this: our group as a whole has many chances to mix and interact in smaller groups for short periods of time, be it in a dorm room, the kitchen, on a tram or bus, or in a class. This breeds a kind of familiarity between each person. In Florida, that rarely happened: we were almost always in one large group, and you know how well I do in large groups, right? Correct: I fade into the background.
This setting has also given my abilities a chance to show themselves better than they could in Florida. Then, I could drive the vans, take good pictures (until my cameras died and I was stuck with a single- use), and little else. (Unless you count that whole Everglades Day 5 incident; check my Facebook pictures.) My biggest contribution didn't come until much later when I put the DVD together. Here I can take better pictures, help people with their computers, do music stuff, get printers and net connections working, guide inebriated people home (long story), and be one of the Canadians. Not sure how that applies, but I feel as though it does. I was apprehensive about this semester at first, but we all seem to have settled into our niches, and I like how things are right now.
Best part so far: no "prospects" are happening. None of that four- letter "L" word (either one) making everything awkward. This is a relief, especially considering how most of the girls have boyfriends back home.
Boy, this post made me sound like the emotional sort, didn't it? It's my opinion that me having five sisters and no brothers did that. I wonder how else that's affected me... but that's a whole other topic.






